Nursing

Those of you who do not know me well, or even at all. I would like to thank you for reading this, and listening to my story. 

I am in the pursuit of becoming a nurse. Right now, I have not applied to a program, and do not know if I will become a nurse through the BIOLA, my univeristy. I hope to God I do, and am doing everything in my power to become a nurse. 

I have realized that modt love movies are about things romantic; poets, writers, aspiring actresses, architects, etc. I was thinking about it today, and realized I cannot recall a love story about a nurse. 

I began thinking maybe it's because there's nothing "romantic" about being a nurse. I wouldn't classify eating a lunch of popcorn and diet coke whilst poring over the different structures of proteins, what I'm currently doing, necessarily "romantic" by definition. 

However, the more I thought about it, nursing is incredibly romantic. Not the type of romance like Jack and Rose, or Gatsby or Daisy, or even Elizabeth and Darcy. 

It is the romance of helping people at their most vulenerable. It is the consistency and stability that I love about nursing. It's about the marriage of being a humanitarian and a scientist. 

The quote that makes poring over proteins, and ingesting diet coke and popcorn as a meal for the third time this week more bearable is by Florence Nightingale: 

Nursing is an art;
and if it is to be made an art,
it requires as exclusive a devotion,
as hard a preparation,
as any painter's or sculptor's work;

for what is the having to do with
dead canvas or cold marble,
compared with having to do with the
living body - the temple of God's spirit?

It is one of the Fine Arts;
I had almost said
the finest of the Fine Arts

- Florence Nightingale

Captain Hook

I am like a five year old. I L-O-V-E Disney, fairytales, and glitter. Lots of glitter. ;) And when I say I love Disneyland, it's like this. I bought my pass on a Friday, and went that Friday, Sunday, and that Tuesday. Heck, I had already paid for my pass within a week. ;)

So naturally, I have my copy of Grimm's and watch ABC's 'Once Upon a Time.' If you don't watch it, the first season is on Netflix, and it is fantastic. In last night's episode, Captain Hook said something that caught my attention, "A man unwilling to fight for what he wants, deserves what he gets."

Okay, time for the Jesus card. Today in Old Testament, my professor was talking about how God has a plan, and He's going to do everything He wants in it. It's usually in different ways than we expect, but it gets done. Sometimes when God puts mountains to climb in front of us, we run. Sometimes when God wants to bless us with a friendship, or a relationship, or a new job; it's scary and we run.

It is only ourselves who we are hurting when this happens. God's going to do what He wants to, but we may miss out on lessons and blessings. And sometimes God's mountain in front of us is just for us to wait. To wait, and to pray. To pray for God's will, and our peace with whatever that is.

Wait & Pray.

Re-Blog

Holler. Mad props man.

http://www.boundless.org/2005/articles/a0001750.cfm

Have you ever heard the fairytale about the princess in shining armor? You know the story. She crosses an ocean, slays a dragon and rescues the man she loves?

Wait. You've never heard that one?

OK, neither have I.

Why? Because fairytales are always the other way around — the man fights for the woman. He takes the risks. He battles the beast. He pursues her.

Now I realize that fairytales are stereotypical, admittedly even a little sexist. But they do contain a measure of truth. These whimsical tales we learn as children mirror a deep-seated longing in the soul of every man and woman.

This article isn't about fairytales. I bring them up only to highlight what I see as a growing problem in the church: young Christian men unable (or unwilling) to actively pursue a potential spouse. Rather than saddling up the proverbial steed, many guys seem to be languishing in the tower, waiting for their princesses to stumble upon them.

If that's you, then I have some no-nonsense advice: It's time to man-up and take the lead in the romance department. And don't hide behind the whole too-holy-for-love façade. When you meet "the one," pursuing her with all your heart is the most spiritual thing you can possibly do.

Let me explain.

Recently I was talking to a godly, attractive and single woman. She was exasperated.

"What's wrong with Christian guys?" she asked me. "They never go after you!"

She was getting plenty of attention from men outside the church, yet the guys at her congregation seemed reluctant to be much more than friends.

A few weeks earlier I had received an email from a young man looking for advice. His questions echoed the problem I'd heard lamented from the other side of the gender divide. My interlocutor was plagued with, what seemed to him, insoluble questions: Should he date a woman from church? If so, how could he be sure he was going for God and not girls? And what if things didn't work out? Would he be able to go back?

Talk about over thinking it!

Those are just two anecdotes, but they reflect a larger trend. In her new bookWhere Have All The Good Men Gone? A.J. Kiesling reports her findings from an in-depth survey of 120 single Christian women. What was their most common complaint about men? Kiesling reports: "Over and over I heard the words, 'I wish men would step up to the plate and take a risk in asking me out.'"

Here is feedback that Kiesling received directly from real-world single Christian women about Christian men.

"God didn't create you to be passive. Pursuit seems to be obsolete, but we still want to be pursued."

"It seems like men aren't willing to take the risk of asking a woman out, since they don't have to anymore. There are plenty of women who will chase them, yet I won't. I want them to pursue me."

"Quit saying, 'I'm waiting on God to bring me my future mate.' What a cop-out! You're scared, and you're afraid of being hurt or rejected and — gasp! — you might be tempted to have sex!"

So why are Christian men not stepping up to the plate? What's behind this trend? I think there are at least a couple of factors.

First, our increasingly politically correct culture tells guys that women have equal responsibility when it comes to initiating the relationship. These days women are encouraged to be more aggressive while men risk appearing domineering if they get the ball rolling.

But here's the rub. While such political correctness is peddled in higher education and the media, it usually doesn't apply in the real world, where women still appreciate a man with the gumption and guts to make the first move. Kiesling writes, "The world may have moved on, become hip and high-tech and politically correct, but old-fashioned values persist in our very make-up." Part of that make-up is a desire to be pursued. There are ways that women can encourage men to initiate a relationship, but that's a topic that Boundless has already covered well in "What Can a Girl Do?"

The second factor is even more pervasive and hazardous to single Christian guys. An exaggerated sense of spiritual propriety can also prevent relationships from forming. I've met a lot of guys who seem to equate romantic passivity with spiritual superiority. In these cases the thinking goes something like this: If I wait and pray patiently, God will drop a woman right into my lap.

Such guys could use some advice from my 88-year-old grandfather. He might seem like an unlikely source of dating wisdom, but he gave me a talk during my single days that I think every Christian guy needs to hear.

My grandfather is a retired pastor. Most of his time he spends deep in prayer with a huge King James Bible splayed open on his lap. When he broached the topic of women with me, I wasn't sure where he'd go. Would he urge caution? Exhort purity? Instead he pointed to a verse that I knew well, Proverbs 18:22: "He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord."

I knew finding a wife was a good thing. Was he trying to rub it in that I was still single?

No, he was pointing out that the verse implied that I had a responsibility in making it happen.

His mouth turned up at one edge.

"Find," he pointed out, "is a verb."

Lesson learned.

When I met my future wife, I knew it was my responsibility to initiate the relationship even though I was scared to death to make the first move. I still remember showing up at her doorstep with flowers in my trembling hands.

I believe it's the man's responsibility to initiate the relationship. But that statement comes with some serious qualifiers. Though it is the guy's job to pursue, that does not negate God's role. God is still the best matchmaker. We should never rush into relationships by running roughshod over the leading of His Spirit. Only after prayer and careful consideration should we proceed.

It's equally important that we be sensitive in reading women's signals. Women want us to be proactive, but when the romantic feelings are not mutual, being aggressive is not cool — it's creepy. If your advances receive chilly receptions, do not soldier on. Doing so will likely only fortify — not wear down — her defenses. Back off and behave like a brother. Once you've made your intentions clear, the ball is in her court. She'll let you know if her feelings change.

But if you're one of the myriad men sitting on the fence too scared or too "spiritual" to pursue a woman, it may be time to man-up and make a move. I know taking risks can be daunting. But often the most rewarding journeys begin with uneasy and faltering steps.

God created you to be a pursuer. So next time God brings a godly woman into your life, don't sit around twiddling your thumbs. The love of your life could be passing you by.

Be More Like the Man You Were Made to Be

Be who God made you to be.

He gave YOU specific talents, interests, tastes, and oppurtunities than me.

He has a plan specifically for YOU.

He wants the best for YOU. Because He loves YOU.

He doesn't want you to be a man, or a woman just to be.

He wants you to be a man or a woman after Him.

Find yourself in Him.

Learn who you are in Christ.

Follow Him.

Find a church, find fellowship, find friends who love God too.

He designed you for a specific function, a cog in a huge machine of humanity through history and you have the ability to help put it all in motion.

We can love Him, because He first loved us.

The Israelites

So I've been reading through Numbers for my Old Testament class and most of Numbers is about how the Israelites were blessed by God in the desert, then complained, then were cursed, then repented and were blessed again.

My professor warned us to not think too lowly of them. Upon startng this book, I wanted to beg different. I was thinking "Good Lord, here they go again, whining wbout manna, whining that they have no meat, whining that it's hot, whining, whining, whining."

Until I realized I am just like them.

I am a child of the Lord, and am very blessed. My life is far from perfect, as am I, but I tend to whine about the same things. God comforts me, and sets me straight, and I whine again. I tend to have the Gideon mentality, where he put out the fleece and asked the Lord if the fleece was wet, and the ground underneath was dry, that he would believe God. God did this. So Gideon, then asked the Lord if the ground was wet, and the fleece was dry that he would believe God. Again, the Lord answered his requests.

I am so stubborn, and ask the Lord repeatedly what to do, and when He answers, I doubt. When I doubt, and He answers again, I'm still skeptical. This happens until I repent, and then when something happens that wasn't in my plan, or that isn't in my timeframe, I whine, and whine, and whine.

So, I am a) learning to not be like the Israelites and b) be more compassionate when I'm reading about them, because I'm a whiner too.

Roald Dahl

Is to this day one of my favorite authors. This quote comes from The Twits if memory serves me correctly. :) I agree with this statement to the utmost, as well as its juxtaposition. I have seen scores of beautiful people who have ugly souls, and it's almost as if the souls corrode the natural beauty.

Moses

So for my Old Testament class, I have a week to read the book of Exodus and write an extensive paper on it. C'est la vie. I've read  through the book before, but everytime I reread Scripture, I believe there's something new I a) haven't seen, b) couldn't be applied in a previous season or c) just never understood.

I noticed something that I haven't seen before. I always thought of Moses kinda as this mighty guy plowing through the desert for many years, and had this gnarly beard, super weathered and tan by the heat, and kinda this Einstein hair do going on.

But I just went through Exodus 6 and saw Moses as a younger man, okay 83 but still young-ish ;), and he's kinda a hot mess. God showed up to this kid in a burning bush and totally commanded Him to free the Hebrews, and Moses saw all these signs that the Lord was powerful and mighty; God gave Moses leprosy, and took it away. The burning bush did not phsyically burn itself, on and on. And Moses is commissioned to go on behalf of the Lord, but in 6:12, 30 Moses says the same thing "Behold, I am of uncircumcised lips. How will Pharaoh listen to me?"

Okay, there's a few things to unpack here. First, Moses was uncircumcised. In Genesis, the Lord made a covenant with Abraham saying to circumcise the males on the eighth day, so as to show they belonged to the Lord. Now, we know Moses was brought up by the Pharaoh and he wasn't sent off until about three months old (Ex. 2:2) and he wasn't circumcised. He was already in hiding, so it may be his parents were not practicing Jews, or they were partially practicing, or they just didn't want to draw attention to themselves. Anyways, God used someone uncircumcised, which was a big deal back in the day. Also, Moses has the confidence of a jr. high girl when he's flipping 83 years old. Lastly, he is arguing with the Lord of Lords about going.

So onwards and upwards to application:
-Moses was a hot mess, who had some serious self-doubts and worries.
-Moses didn't necessarily have the traditional "qualifications" that other Hebrew people had.
-Moses had a sketchy criminal record (Ex 2:11-12)
-Moses found answers to his self doubt in the Lord (Ex 7:1-8)

Now, looking at the track record. Moses had it just about as together as I do, which is not much. But the Lord threw away the conventionality of what people may think of a servant of the Lord as, and used someone who was willing, hesitant, but willing. God could have done it Himself and just used Pegasus to arilift the children of Israel to the promised land, or He could have used angels who wouldn't have wrestled with God, but God used hot mess, stuttering, unconfident Moses.

There's a Christian cliche of "God does not call the equipped, He equips the called." But the more and more I dig into the Bible, I realize that these heroes of the faith were just as jacked-up, pock-marked, and messed up as I am. They had their self-doubts, their worries, whatever junk was in their trunk, but they were willing.

I know God has a plan for me, and I'm trying to prepare my heart so if He calls me beyond my comfort zone, I am ready to respond.

And then Moses threw the tablets to the ground. No really, he did (Ex. 32:19) ;) 

Watch below if you don't get the joke. :)